When Elliott and I were first married, we could never get out of the video store in under an hour, because neither of us could voice our opinion as to what movie we wanted to watch. We are not quite so bad about decisions anymore, but I still find myself never taking action on items because I can't face the consequences.
For instance, I am currently debating two major purchases... Matching bedding for Sophie's crib and Emma's big girl bed, and tile for our kitchen backsplash (it's a hard life, I know!) I have been looking for both of these since the beginning of summer, but can't actually make up my mind because they both are going to cost so much, and be there for a long time (especially the backsplash.)
With indecision on such relatively inconsequential things, you can imagine how much of a wreck I am when it comes to bigger, more personal decisions. As I am writing this, I am thinking how easy it was for me to marry Elliott. That was the biggest decision I ever had to make in my life, and it was really not even a decision... More of a no-brainer! Other things are a big deal, and I admit, I have trouble at times deciphering what the Spirit is telling me, especially when I know what I want. I wonder at times how the final judgement is going to play out. How many decisions have I made that the Lord will ask me what I was thinking, and why I didn't follow the direction I was given by the Spirit.
Ah well, that is the beauty of the Atonement. When I do fall short, the Lord will make up the difference for me. What an amazing blessing!