I was just released as the Primray President this past week. Just shy of two years, and yes, that does make me feel like a bit of a failure. But I am also ecstatic that I no longer have the burden and responsibility. I feel such relief at not being constantly bombarded with thoughts about what we can and should be doing or changing in Primary.
The last year in Primary was quite difficult for me. I went through my pregnancy with Sophie, during which I was VERY sick for the first few months, had a small break, and then became so over-sized and swollen it got hard to even move. I also had issues with counselors; One left her 3 kids and husband to go do her own thing, the others were unavailable to me right after I had Sophie because one was put in as the Relief Society President, her replacement got pregnant and was really sick, one had a baby in the beginning of December, and my secretary is in the process of selling her house and moving to California. Needless to say, I found myself trying to do a lot to ease the burdens they felt, and combined with trying to keep my busy household in order, it just wasn't working.
So I prayed fervently, and the Lord in His goodness inspired the Bishopric to release me. I will definitely miss Primary... I wish all it required was giving sharing time lessons. I will miss being in the same classes with my kids, but I am grateful to be able to concentrate on my family more.
This website may be just what I need to get myself organized. I can't seem to stay on top of everything that goes on around here now that sweet little Sophie has arrived. Especially keeping up with all the schoolwork Andrew and Ethan have. Little person #6 seems to have increased the laundry exponentially, and recently my children have decided that rather than putting things away, they would rather drop stuff out of their hands onto the floor. Since I'm not a great housekeeper anyway, you can imagine the disorder and mayhem.
As I sit here typing, Sophie is looking up at me with her sweet little face. That makes it all worth it!